If I had it to do over again....

...I might not have traveled to Florida for Christmas this year.

It was a good trip in a lot of ways. Adam actually started to eat "real" food on this trip! Yes, the child ate turkey, mashed potatoes, roast beef, cheese, spaghetti and macaroni and cheese!

He added to his formerly single word vocabulary with ice cream, Elmo, car, up, down, cup, light, Grandma, and Nicky (one of his cousins) and my name now seems to be "mommommom" -LOL -- I guess its hard to stop once you get going with those "moms". He got over his fear of walking on grass -- one look at my brother's swing set and trampoline, daringly located on grass, and there was no looking back!

He got to meet and spend time with his two uncles, his aunt, and his cousins.

He got to see the ocean, which he most assuredly did NOT like. LOL! I carried him to the top of the steps leading down to the beach and he took one look and immediately pointed back the way we had come. I did walk him to the water's edge and his grandfather handed him a shell -- which, of course, got sand on his hands and that was the end of the beach. (Adam intensely dislikes dirt on his hands and runs to me to have the slightest speck of dirt removed post-haste! )

And yet...it was all just too much, too soon after coming home, very stressful. Getting out of our newly established routine caused more stress than I realized. In some ways, Adam was a real trooper and quickly seemed comfortable at grandma's house, but at the same time, had an awful lot of tantrums that week - at least one a day, complete with the very dramatic headbanging.

He threw a doozy of a tantrum in a mall the day we took pictures with Santa. That was a no-good very bad day. I've been sick with bronchitis since the first week of December and was completely exhausted. On our second day in Florida, we met my brother, sister-in-law, nephews and niece in the mall. After the picture was taken, we decided to do some Christmas shopping. My nephews and niece were clamoring for my attention and I was trying to deal with Adam, give the kids some attention and Christmas shop at the same time. As we walked around the mall, I was getting nothing done and starting to panic, thinking I would never have time to do all the shopping when the off the Richter scale tantrum struck out of left field.

We had screaming, kicking, hitting me, ripping my glasses off. What fun! I was very close to my own tantrum. It was his first public tantrum and I was mortified. It was the first time my brother was meeting Adam and I was convinced he would think I was a bad parent. All the stress and exhaustion hit me at once and I was very close to losing it. My mother took Adam, who continued to scream, but didn't hit her. He screamed so loud and so long (he has incredible stamina for screaming) that a man walked up and demanded of my mother "What are you doing to that baby?" Sigh. My mother, being who she is, replied "I'm pinching him." Great, Mom. Thankfully, he didn't sic the mall police on us!

Going back to daycare has been a little hard again -- I guess he thought he was done with that! But I know he'll settle down again. And something happened last night that even though he is having a hard time being away from me, he loves his teacher.

I picked him up and we walked home and got Nea ready and headed back out again to walk her. About a block from home we ran into his teacher. Adam was overjoyed and amazed to see her -- outside! I guess in his mind she exists only in the daycare building because he immediately started pointing out cars and houses and lights to her as if she'd never seen "outside". LOL!

So, even though a mostly good time was had by all, we are home and we are going to be here for quite a while this time.