Ooooklahoma where the wind comes sweeping down the plains....

Pictures from Vietnam Heritage Weekend in Tulsa

Here's Adam on one of the electric cars while visiting with the Hodges and Myers families:




His first time in a pool - he loved it!

getting a ride with help from Ian Conner and painting with Drew Conner

Fan painting and just looking handsome

Reconnecting with our travel buddes Rhett Myers and Eli Hodges and meeting big sister Lucy Hodges.

Asian Boy Baby doll

Several people have asked here to find an Asian boy doll. The doll I bought Adam is a 9" Berenguer Baby Doll.

Sweet dreams are made of this....

...I was having a dream this weekend where I was in a new, different apartment. It was the middle of the night and I was walking from room to room and noticing how easy it would be for someone to break in, windows that wouldn't lock, fire escapes that would provide easy access and the like. In the dream, I was very frightened. At this point, my ex-boyfriend showed up at the door, as he was wont to do, after my not having seen him for some time. He would often vanish from my life and return months, or even years later just when I had begun to get over him.

At that moment I woke because Adam called for me, crying, and I stumbled to his room. He had apparently been having a nightmare and was scared so I picked him up to comfort him. As I stood there with my crying child clinging to me, I was so grateful that THIS was my life, and not the one in the dream.

A quote for Thursday

Being a humanist means trying to behave decently without expectation of rewards or punishment after you are dead. — Kurt Vonnegut

A decision - at least, a partial one

After much ruminating and agonizing and worrying, I took the leap this week and hired a searcher to find Adam's birth family. I don't know if I am ready for this, but I couldn't get past the nagging fear that if I waited until he was ready to search, the trail would have gone cold.

I decided that I could take it one step at a time -- get the information in hand and then decide what the next step should be. I'm nervous, but think I'm doing the right thing for Adam.