A good quote

“Bringing up a family should be an adventure, not an anxious discipline in which everybody is constantly graded for performance.” -- Milton R. Saperstein

A momentous first....

....Adam slept through the night last night -- for the second day in a row! That's never happened before! Let's hope it portends Mama getting some uninterrupted sleep more than once or twice a week.....

So I know this is weird....

....but I am compelled to share it anyway. I was tickling Adam the other day when my fingers suddenly arrived at his belly button, the same, cute little belly button I've seen a million times before. This time, for some reason, I was struck by two powerful emotional blasts -- the first was a real grief and sense of loss that Adam hadn't grown in my body, that we had not been connected at his beautiful little belly button. I was still reeling with that pain when the second wave hit me -- this very real evidence of his connection to his birth mother! And how she (and her husband) had made the difficult decision to give him up having had this connection....Had I not already been emotionally doubled over, this would have done it!

And yet...this is nothing I didn't know intellectually. I don't know why it hit me so viscerally now.....

See, I told you this was weird.